Sixteen Months and Still Waiting

Sweet sixteen---I don't think so!  We have now been on the waiting list for sixteen LONG months.  I called the agency last week upon rumors that there were more families in front of us than I had last been told.  Well fortunately, we are still #3---unfortunately, we are STILL #3! 

The interesting news however, is that we are in a position whereby we could get a girl referral.  Our preference was stated as either gender, but we were told that we would more than likely get a boy as the wait for boys was about four months shorter.  Now, in an interesting twist of fate, the referrals for both infant boys and girls are neck and neck.  The agency told me that we would be referred whatever gender came up when we got to the top of the list.  I'm not quite sure how I feel about this.  On one hand, since we already have two girls and are paying a lot of money for this, why not get the gender we don't already have?  On the other hand, should we view it as it is God's will and if we are referred a girl that is what we were meant to have?  We do have the option to turn down the referral and wait for the other gender---a position I never imagined we would be in!

The last referrals that went out for infant boys were given at about the sixteen month mark.  Could ours be just around the corner?  or several months away??  I am now carrying my cell phone around with me as though it were another appendage waiting for that elusive call.  A call that will hopefully come sooner than later!