We witness a miracle each time a child enters a life
But those who must make their journey home across time and miles,
Growing in the hearts of those waiting to love them,
Are carried on the wings of destiny
And placed among us by God's own hands.

Friday, July 15, 2011

My Decision

After this weeks developments, I have come to a decision.  Or perhaps my heart has come to a decision. 

We were supposed to be submitted to embassy last Wednesday; we were not.
We were supposed to be submitted to embassy this Wednesday; we were not.

To not go into a lot of confusing details, we found out yesterday that the agency has been trying to obtain more documents and search for yet another person before they submit us to embassy.  In our agencies defense, they are just trying to dot their "i's" and cross their "t's" so that we do not have issues with the embassy; so that we can clear embassy the first time around.  We however, have had enough delays and are out of patience.  With correspondence received today, they think they have a solution and said we would be submitted "for sure" next Wednesday.  If so, we should know within three to five days of submission if we have cleared and can schedule the visa appointment; or if they want further documentation and subsequently more delay.

I have decided that if we do not clear embassy by the first few days of August, I will be booking tickets to travel to Ethiopia the third week of August.  I will stay as long as needed to bring our son home.  I will be able to "assist" the agency while there to finish our case, but more importantly, be able to start the bonding process.  Since reaching this decision I have felt so much more at peace.  My mood has also changed dramatically from tearful and depressed to confident and joyful.  It is a decision supported by everyone I have talked to and that helps tremendously.

Of course we are hoping that we clear embassy without delay and it does not come to this.  If it does however, at least I know when I will get to see and hold our son and it is so good to not carry around that uncertainty we have been living with for over two years now.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Shocking Statistics

Estimated population in Ethiopia:  almost 91 million

Population      0-14 years:   46.3%
                    15-64 years:  51%
                    65 and over:  2.7%

Median Age:  16.8 years

Life Expectancy Average:  56.19 years

Fertitlity Rate:  6.02 children/woman

Infant Mortality Rate:  77.12/1,000 live births

Estimated number of orphans:  4.3 million

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Father's Day

Troy would probably kill me if he knew I was writing this about him.  I, however, think he deserves it.

I am amazed at the transformation I have seen in him over the last several years since we started this process.  Perhaps he always had these new qualities I have seen, we just have never been in this position before for them to come out.  Or perhaps, he has changed his thinking and his heart.

Several years after Jenna was born I wanted another child, but he did not.  For years I begged and pleaded with him but he could not be persuaded.  He was worried about the stress and worry associated with it and with that he was concerned he might have another life-threatening bleed.  Finally, he changed his mind---when I was about 39!  Not wanting to physically go through a pregnancy at that age and risk having a child with lifelong problems or complications myself, I looked into adoption.

He had many trepidations about adoption; "Will the child have health problems?,  What will the child look like? Will the child have emotional issues from being institutionalized?"  Once we settled on Ethiopia, he was anxious about whether the child would feel as though they fit in with our family due to their skin color.  For several months after we were on the waiting list,  he would mention the options for changing our minds and "getting out of it" for various reasons---the economy, terrorism, the cost increases.  But then he started talking to people and found many people who had adopted that he never knew had.  He learned of wonderful experiences others had, along with not so wonderful experiences.  He found most people were very supportive and admired him for what he was doing. 

It was then that I had noticed the change.  He began telling more and more people about what we were undertaking and talking about it in a positive light.  When we got the referral of Emmanuel, I truly think it was love at first sight for him.  This was compounded even further by finally meeting him in Ethiopia.  Troy and I knew this was the child meant for us.  It wasn't until the last delay with the disappearance letter, however, that I really saw the "father protecting his child" come out.  He called the agency many times (with my initial encouragement as I was tired of crying on the phone) and fought for his son.  He pushed them to get things done and keep us informed.  He too was heartbroken that we were losing more time with our child.  Here he was fighting for a child he had only had contact with for all of four days.  I consider myself very lucky as I know not all men can or want to love and raise a strangers child.

Last Sunday at church, I saw the culmination of the last two years come to light.  We were there with only Jenna as Jessica was at a party.  One of the ushers asked Troy if we only had the one child.  Troy said "No, we have another daughter who is at a party AND I have a boy who is 8,000 miles away.  I have an adopted son in Ethiopia."  Hearing him say that with such pride and joy made me smile . . . really smile.


Friday, June 10, 2011

It's Official!!

WE PASSED!  WE PASSED!!  WE PASSED!!!  We officially are parents to our beautiful and smart little boy.  Apparently the social worker picked up the disappearance letter from the Kebele and delivered it to the judge the day before our court date---talk about cutting it close!  That is all that was needed for us to pass.  It's too bad it took seven weeks to do it.

Susan called me the minute she found out the news and I happened to be at work at the time.  When the phone rang and I saw who it was I was walking a patient at the time.  I hollered for someone to help with the patient as this was the call I was waiting for.  When I answered it I knew by the tone in her voice it was good news.  She said "you passed, it is over."  I was ecstatic and once I hung up, I immediately started getting hugs and congratulations from my co-workers.  After all, they have also been on this journey with me the last two years.

What now?  Well, we move onto the last step which is Embassy.  The agency has to wait for the adoption decree from the courts and then get it translated.  Once translated they get the new birth certificate and then use that to get his passport.  He also has to get a medical exam by the Embassy doctor and have repeat blood tests done.  Once all these things are done and his file is complete, it is submitted to the US Embassy where his file is reviewed.  Hopefully at that time we will be cleared to travel.  They could also request more documentation which can't possibly happen to us again, could it?  The Embassy will e-mail me when we have been cleared and we will schedule an Embassy date.  This will be when I go back to Ethiopia to get his VISA and bring him home. 

Unfortunately, this whole process will take about 6-8 weeks, if we are lucky.  The latest news is that the Embassy will only be scheduling half the appointments they normally do in July due to staff training.  Our agency says it should not slow things down too much though, due to only about half the cases passing court right now.  This remains to be seen but I don't think we deserve any more delays.  We have had our share.


Well, now that we have passed court I can finally show off our son to the world!  World, meet Nathan Emmanuel Hertzfeld!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Reliving a Nightmare

I have not posted in awhile as the last four weeks have been a nightmare.  We are unfortunately, reliving another delay due to a document issue.  It has been six weeks since our original court date and the agency still has not collected the disappearance letter.  It has appeared as though those responsible for writing it are in no hurry and don't want to be bothered to do it.  After our court date on May 3 the judge never set another date as she just left the case open waiting for the letter to be submitted.  Well, on May 20th the judge set another court date for June 9th as well as issued a court order to the Kebele to request the disappearance letter.  When the social worker from Emmanuels' original orphanage delivered the court order, the Kebele requested an additional 3-4 days to complete their investigation.  Complete their investigation after SIX WEEKS!!  You are kidding me!  The social worker went back to the judge who did extend the court order for four more days and this was delivered to the Kebele on May 25th.

The woman in charge of the Ethiopian program at AAI, Susan, has been a big advocate for our case and was just in Ethiopia last week.  She gathered the above information for us and said that the social worker advised her the judge will not extend the court order again and that the letter is in process.  Susan has been a dear to us and has spoken both to Troy and I on many occasions and pushed to find out information when possible on our case.  I don't know what we would have done without her.

We are hoping and praying that the letter will be collected and submitted to the judge for our court date on June 9th.  If we do not pass this time I think I will lose all hope.  We have now lost nearly 3 1/2 months with our child due to preventable paperwork delays and it is completely heartbreaking.  I thought we had our share after the first delay, but now with this delay all I can ask is "why?"  "Why us again?"

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

A Sad Day

Well, we did not pass court yesterday.  They were not able to get the disappearance letter in time.  This has got me worrying that this may turn into another birth certificate fiasco.  We do not know whether the judge has scheduled another court date for us but we were told they are working on getting the letter.

So sad . . .

Monday, April 25, 2011

A Trip of a Lifetime

We are back from our trip and even though we are a bit jetlagged, I think we are still in disbelief we were just halfway around the world and met our future son.  The trip was absolutely amazing!

First of all, Rome was unbelievable!  I could go on and on and on . . .  It was a blessing to have Adam as our "personal tour guide" because we were able to see most of Rome in a whirlwind of four days.  We saw many major sites including;  The Pantheon, The Colliseum, St. Peters Basilica, The Roman Forum,  Trevi Fountain, Spanish Steps, and many, many gorgeous churches.  We went to the Vatican museum and sat in awe of the Sistene Chapel for about forty-five minutes.  The highlight of the trip was our private tour by Adam of the Papal Palace.  We saw things only ambassadors and dignitaries get to see and even went out on a balcony just several hundred feet from the Papal apartment.  It was truly amazing.  We would definitely like to return someday and see more of Rome, as well as other areas of Italy.

From Rome we went to Ethiopia and to another world entirely.  We found Ethiopian Airlines to be top notch and were impressed with the airport as well.  When one thinks of Africa one thinks of grass huts, wild animals, and people in native clothing.  Well, Addis Ababa is nothing like that and it made it difficult to believe we were in Africa.  It is a huge city with paved roads, cars, hotels, restaurants, and people in jeans and t-shirts walking everywhere.  Looking closer however, one see's the extreme poverty, mules and sheep being led down the road, and garbage along the streets.  There were beggars sitting along the sidewalks and buses crammed to the ceiling with people.  Despite the hardships there, the Ethiopian people are very friendly, welcoming, and always smiling.  We felt very safe there, even on our fifteen minute walks from the hotel to AAI everyday.

We were able to see Emmanuel the first day we got there, after we checked into the hotel and got a hold of the care centers director, Gail.  She picked us up on her way to the care center as she was going there for a "goodbye party" for two children that were leaving with their new parents that day.  He was sleeping when we got there so we walked around, took pictures, and joined the party.  When we went back later, he was up and the nanny was changing his clothes.  I could not believe I was actually seeing in person the child I had only seen up until then in pictures.  He was absolutely adorable!  She handed him to me and he just completely studied my face as if saying, "who are you?"  It was an amazing moment that I will never forget.  Troy held him shortly after and he did the same thing with him.

Over the course of the four days we were there we spent time at the care center getting to know our little guy.  We were there usually for several hours in the morning and again in the afternoon or early evening.  The rest of the time the agency had little trips planned for us to see more of Ethiopia.  We went up to Entoto Mountain, Sabahar silk factory, a cultural museum, shopping on Churchill Street, and several restaurants including an authentic Ethiopian restaurant.  It was a wonderful experience as we learned more about the place from where our future son was born.

And speaking of our future son, I don't think we could have gotten luckier.  He is PERFECT!  He has beautiful skin, huge dark brown eyes, soft fuzzy hair, and a smile that would make you melt.  He is very smart and developmentally right on track.  He is crawling as well as pulling to stand and cruising along furniture.  I am so hoping we get him home before his first steps.  He seems to be quite close with several of the nannies and they to him.  Anytime he hears them call his name or sing he gets a huge smile on his face.  He did take to us fairly well, me more than Troy as we think he is somewhat apprehensive of men as all of the nannies are women.  On the second day we were there he was crawling on the floor and I sat down and got his attention.  He turned and looked at me, smiled after a few seconds, and crawled into my lap.  It totally warmed my heart and was nearly the same feeling I got when they placed my girls in my arms after their birth.  I knew then that this child was meant for us.

He however, was not meant to be officially ours this trip.  You may notice I have been writing "future son."  Unfortunately, we did not pass court.  Our court day started off terrible as I woke up that morning not feeling well and threw up shortly after; only to be sick about five more times that day.  I was also quite emotional as it was our last day there and I was missing Emmanuel already.  We went to court with another couple, The Wilkins, who were amazing.  We all went into the court room together and sat in front of the judge.  We answered in unison about five or six questions she asked.  She then told The Wilkins that they passed.  She then asked who was there for Emmanuel and told us the biological mother failed to make her appearance,  therefore we did not pass.  I was heartbroken, especially since I had questioned the whereabouts of the mother to several people at the agency months earlier.  I was told it would be taken care of and not to worry.  I guess I should have worried.  The judge scheduled another court date for us with the court liason for May 3, 2011.  Our agency told us that they and the orphanage he was initally taken to would investigate the mothers whereabouts and if she could not be found all they needed to do was get a letter from her local government office confirming her disappearance.  They said it would not be a problem.  We, of course, are praying that we pass on the third and we will be able to move on to the final step.

I will post a few pictures from Ethiopia but I am unable to post any of Emmanuel until we pass court.  These photos may give you a feel for the country in which our son was born.

                                          AAI's Care Center
                                         A typical Ethiopian home
                                        View from Entoto mountain

                       
                                          Our daily walk
                                         An Ethiopian dwelling
                                         Sabahar silk co.
Sheep being led down the street
                                         A church